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Sometimes…

I wish I’d gone to college. I wish my life hadn’t ended up like this - full of regrets & wishes & could-have-beens & should-have-beens. I wish all these horrible things hadn’t happened.  Do not get me wrong, I do not & never will regret Ellie. I love her more than anything, she is my heart on the outside of my body. But I wish I had been destined to be more than a dumb girl trapped in a repetitive relationship & a monotonous life. I love being a mother, but I hate the obligations I have to everyone. I wish I could be interesting & have more to talk about than my mundane life. I wish when someone asked me what I’ve been doing lately, I’d have more to say than “work & being a mom.” I wish I had been able to get into school or cared & went & been great & met some wonderful guy who wouldn’t hurt me. I wish you didn’t resent me for taking that away from you. I wish I hadn’t told you. I wish I’d had the same baby but in 5 years with someone else. I wish I had actual goals & talent & ambition. 

But when I look at my daughter, I know it’s worth it & I just hope it’s gonna be enough.

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Update.

Ellie’s 9 months & wonderful. Making all her milestones, etc. 

Sean is still a douche.

I’m still stressed.

Nothing’s really changed.

So I forgot about this.

Love you, again, Tumblr.